I am really, really, really disappointed to say that I’ve been waitlisted at Yale SOM. I’m surprised, yet unsurprised. I can’t help thinking that if I’d done better on that video interview and hadn’t been almost late for my in-person interview that I may have been straight out admitted. But then again, maybe not. Who knows?
Waitlisting is weird. On one hand you think, “At least I wasn’t straight out denied!” On the other hand, it’s not like there’s anything to celebrate, either. It’s like…nothingness. There’s a completely unknown chance of being admitted NEXT SUMMER (Yale doesn’t release numbers on how many people get off the waitlist in past years) and meanwhile, the rest of the world will keep on turning and you’ll get responses from other schools. There’s not really a point in holding your breath for that long…at least in my opinion. And I’ve already interviewed in person and submitted what I can. I don’t foresee any major changes coming up for me that would sway a decision. Except that I was named employee of the month at my organization last month…I’m sure that will get me in!! Sorry, the sarcasm is leaking out.
I’m counting this one as a ding in my mind. Partially because there’s no point for me to obsess over it and partially because I don’t really like feeling like a last pick. Probably dumb and overly prideful, but if I did get admitted, I’d feel like I was the last pick in gym class when the captains take turn to create their dodgeball teams. Like–I still have one slot to fill, and there’s just this person left, so…I guess it’s her! That’s a completely inaccurate analogy, of course, because there’s still hundreds of others who weren’t waitlisted at all. It’s also inaccurate because I was always the first girl to be picked when we played dodgeball in gym in elementary school. But it’s apt in that I’d be the last choice among a pool. A pool of amazing and awesome people, of course, but still last.
This kind of brings me to the idea of reapplying to bschools. While I don’t think my age should be counted against me in my apps, I am not entertaining any possibility of reapplying for schools next year. But I’m not off to a good start, here–I’ve got official dings from GSB and SOM and I’m now 99% sure I’ll have a ding from Haas. I originally only had Cornell and USC lined up for round 2, but I’m getting nervous now, and I may have to rethink that plan. None of the schools I’m applying to are even close to a sure thing, so I might start thinking about adding a real “safety” school.